Friday, 18 April 2014

Everything Happens For A Reason

"Why am here now?" A question I have been asking so long... "Do I have something to write?" or "Do I have to say?" My answer is no... At this moment am blank! Nothing occupies my mind... Feels like floating... And still sitting here with a fresh page and just typing some nonsense...

May be in this post I don't have a chance to believe or write, "Everything Happens For A Reason." Even my words sounds like am desperate. But Why??? What all things can make you hurt? What all things can put you down?

Expectations... It always hurt! Does it mean am expecting something? Or was I? Confused!
Heart breaks... Obviously they do and right now am not in any relation to have a herat break and to get desperate.
Failures... No Way! I know to smile at them and to rise.

Hey, my dear... You know, you need to smile, then everything is going to be alright... Yes, laugh at your confusions... Give a sweet good bye to your heart break... And your failures they are your stepping stones to success.

"Any more confusions girl?"
No, I know to smile and i know life is beautiful... And Everything Happens For a Reason.
"Yeah! You said it... Go and face the world with a smile..."

Tuesday, 15 April 2014

Dream

Dream... Can anyone give me a proper definition for the word "Dream"? How it happens? How we are getting some visuals while we are sleeping? Do those images have something to do with our lives?  Why people shout in dreams? Am pretty confused about it! How and Why, these are my questions I have...  And don't think I have answers with me now for all these questions and am here to pen down it. No, am confused as earlier. Here am going to tell you about a dream of mine.

Ok. Before that I should say I do have done a little research on the word , 'Dream'. Yet, I didn't get anything which can justify my questions. Dreams are successions of images, ideas, emotions, and sensations that occur involuntarily in the mind during certain stages of sleep (I got this definition from Wikipedia and the dictionary's also provide me with the same answers). Am pretty hopeless now about understanding the great phenomenon of dreaming!

Its been a quite long am having some good dreams. Always there is something I have to scream out, wake up and loose that entire night. And being a person who just runs to her mother saying, "ma, yesterday also I saw something, it attacked me, I screamed out and ..." and finally it ends in mom scolding me for not praying properly before going to sleep! (Confused me again! Prayer and dream... do they have a connection?). And I don't Know why suddenly things changed. That horrifying dreams are not disturbing me, am having good sleeps (still I went to bed, how I used to go) and what changed now? 

Back to my 'Dream'... Yesterday it was a sleepless night for me. I was not asleep when the clock hits one, somehow I slept and it was full of dreams. Usually when I fight to get a sound sleep, I used to fear about the visuals or ideas that catch up my mind while I sleep. But this time, it was something sweet; a lovely message, someone to wait in the other end, who cares, who loves... And the funniest part came in the morning with my mom's question, "to whom you were talking with?" And me standing with the most stupd expression in the world, "What ma?"!


So its again time for my confusion. What was that dream? who was that? and how such a person came to my mind? And most importantly what I was talking with him! 

Wednesday, 9 April 2014

I Miss U Too...

In one-line I will say it as a conversation between best friends. They live in two different places now. And one day she came across a post from “The Happy Page” in her timeline and… Ok. Here it goes…


Him: Wat was dat?
Her: Wat?????
Him: Ur last msg
Her: Don’t u knw to read?
Him: R u insane? Wen u started saying philosophies?
Her: no, I’m not
Him: whr r u now?
Her: Y?
Him: Will u answr me?
Her: Ques pls…
Him: WHERE THE HELL R U RYT NOW?
Her: Office
Him: Wait der, am coming!
Her: Wat? Coming whr?
Him: I miss u



Thursday, 3 April 2014

And An Year Back...

Have you ever wondered what you were doing exactly on this day an year back? Most people won't do unless they have something to remember about a date or a day.

Ok. Hold a second! today is 3rd April. 

one of the few highlighted days in her life. This day is always special to her, as its the birthday of her best friend.




And an year back, on this day they celebrated their last anniversary together. And an year had passed by... Lot of changes in their lives, statuses and relations.



And an year, US had become ME and You, two complete strangers. The parayers, the dreams all shattered. What they have now is a broken promise of friendship. And it too never worked, because what they once shared was love, True Love.

This is not the words of a shattered heart. She never thought, she can do without him. Yes, She survived, lived, laughed and loved her life wholeheartedly. Smiling back in the worst situations of life makes her more stronger and a beautiful person at heart. And her smiles payed her back. Her life gave her true love and smiles.



Now as she says, she too believes Everything Happens For A Person.

Monday, 31 March 2014

The Two Girls

Journeys to office are always fun in one way or another. Whether it is the ‘Solitary journey’ in the mornings or the ‘Gang going back home’ in the evenings, there is always something to look up to. Sometimes an aunty fighting for the seat, an innocent smile of a kid, lovers sitting in the next seat, the outside vendors, never ending traffic of Cochin, the pillars of metro, the Chinese nets, the sunset and the list goes on and on.


Today it was same in the morning. Over crowded bus, fighting for a seat and getting one finally. Yeah, my favorite seat, the one next to the door. The seat next to the door gave us a lot of provisions. Fresh air, seeing everyone who gets into and gets down from the bus, the people who waits, their expressions of hope and happiness (if the driver applied the break for them to get in) or the expression of hope changes into loss, when they misses the bus. All these are quite worth watching and these will never make you bored in the same journey you took regularly.


 And today, in that over crowded bus I met two beautiful children. Two Girls. Other than they get into the same bus from the same stop, they don’t have any similarities and I don’t know whether they will ever have. Two little girls; one below the age of ten and the other below the age of five. I get the glance of former from outside the bus. A dark girl with rusty hair and over draped in over-sized salwaar kameez. She didn’t look like a normal kid of her age, carrying two mushy polythene bags in her hand, and accompanying by a nun. And the later kid, who catches my attention after some distance, dressed all up in a glossy frock, pink shoes and an over shoulder bag, to add to all that she got a hair bow with plastic roses. This kid was with her dad and they were on their way to hospital to see the new born of their family. It was evident from her double colored bindhi of black and red in three parallel lines, that her father has done a great job in getting her ready.


The Two Girls. One standing next to her father (with all the easiness in the world, in that over crowded bus) and telling him so many things with twinkling eyes. And the other, trying to find a place to stand properly. The people pushed her side by side and the fear in her eyes, the way she looks up to the nun and finally getting hold of a seat bar.



The Two Girls. One enjoying her childhood and shares her dreams of playing with her new born sibling. The other standing in between a strange crowd, who pushes and pulls her to side by side and searching for a safe corner to settle.


As I said earlier, they both neither have any similarities and nor they will have. The Two Girls. The two beautiful creations of God and the unknown “Writer of Fate” have written this story for them. The little kid, today I met, will get all the chances of life. She will surely try her luck in everything and will build her on life with her dreams. What about the other? Will she get a proper education? Will she ever fall in love with her life? Where she was taken by that nun? To another convent or a home, as a maiden girl? Or will the destiny bring her in front of me as a nun, after some years?


I don’t know. And here I’m, sitting in my room, surrounded by my parents, secured in every aspect, thinking what would have happen to her? This write up, it started from the guiltiness I have in my mind. In the beginning itself I was not sure about what to write and where and how I can stop it!


I’m really sorry girl for not helping you in that crowd and at that moment remaining silent was the only choice I had.  At this moment I can promise you only one thing. You will be always remembered in my prayers and hoping for the wonders of Almighty God, to happen in your life. 

Believe. Everything Happens For A Reason.

Wednesday, 19 March 2014

HE and HE

He
Always
Made rules for her.
Asked her to obey him.
Scolded her.
Interfered in her freedom.
            Never
                       Stood for her.
                       Walked with her.
                       Boosted her up.
                       Be the reason for her smile.
He, Her Life.
Her Love.


 He
Never
Made any rules for her.
Asked her to obey him.
Scolded her.
Interfered in her freedom.
            Always
                        Stood for her.
                        Walked with her.
                        Boosted her up.
                        Be the reason for her smile.
She, His life.
His Sister.