Amma, This One Is For You!

Date: 19 August 2014

Time: 09. 20 PM

“Is there any problem?”

“Nope. Why?”

“It’s not your bed time.”

“So?”

“Why are you not reading or writing something?”

“Is it a problem?”

“Of course. Yes!”

(A surprised look) “Please… Good night."

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Date: 20 August 2014

Time: 08. 35 AM

“You are not yourself.”

“Please don’t start it again! Am fine mom…”

“Am not feeling it. Is everything OK with you?”

“Why you felt that am not OK?”

“You are not writing.”

“WHAT?”

“Am loving your letters, and I didn’t saw you writing in the last days.”

“Ma, Don’t be crazy. I just…”

“Do write Pavi. Even though you are not happy I know how much a book and your diary can heel you. Just do it for me. I love it when you write something and I love to read it more. So, will you?”

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 I love you Amma... and you are the best!

IT’S ALL ABOUT LETTERS! 30 DAYS 30 LETTERS CHALLENGE

Letters, Letters, Hand Written Letters! First love for that blue paper arriving home every week addressing my mom’s name started from my childhood. On those days I really wished I too will have someone in the coming future who will regularly send me letters, just to check on with my life. Ha… It never happened with me with these electronic gadgets. 30 Days, 30 Letters and my love to write letters, am in for the challenge.

DAY 5: LETTER TO YOUR DREAMS

"I dream. Sometimes I think that's the only right thing to do."

Let me write 'To My Dreams',

Of course, I don't have one, I have a lot. Who will be having only just one dream! So to all of my beautiful, scary, ambitious, romantic, confusing, challenging and sometimes haunting dreams you are good and awesome. I don't know how and when I fall in love with all kinds of dreams but I just want you all to know that, I simply loves you. Without you, how boring my life will be! And am so much committed to you, just because you never makes me feel bored.

As you all know am a quite good dreamer. I imagine things (most of the time) and you people reminds me of that when am sitting simply (and my amma and friends calls me a day dreamer) or you people came to me at night, and I will talk with you (the result, Ponnu will have a story to tell in every morning about the unreal conversations between us). I won't ask, why you are doing this to me? I know you people loves me as much as I do and you don't like me to be alone. And the crazy people around me doesn't know about our secret relationship and love. So, lets just ignore them and their funny comments.

However you are, there is always a part in me which loves you. Sometimes you are so scary and haunting. I cried with you on those times but in the next day you will make me smile. I know you will continue like this (mix of emotions and feelings) but I will love you as much as I do now. Sometimes you make me feel your absence. those times turns to be boring days and silent nights. Sometimes you came to me, without letting me know your presence and you will leave an unclear image of something. I love that too about you. 

What I'm doing right now, is also such a beautiful thing we dream together. With you, I dream and I love to make those dreams come true, for us.

Lovingly
The Dreamer Girl

30 DAYS 30 LETTERS CHALLENGE 

IT’S ALL ABOUT LETTERS! 30 DAYS 30 LETTERS CHALLENGE

Letters, Letters, Hand Written Letters! First love for that blue paper arriving home every week addressing my mom’s name started from my childhood. On those days I really wished I too will have someone in the coming future who will regularly send me letters, just to check on with my life. Ha… It never happened with me with these electronic gadgets. 30 Days, 30 Letters and my love to write letters, am in for the challenge.

DAY 4: LETTER TO YOUR SIBLING

"She is your mirror, shining back at you with a world of possibilities. She is your witness, who sees you at your worst and best, and loves you anyway. she is your partner in crime, your midnight companion, someone who knows when you are smiling, even in the dark. She is your teacher, your defense attorney, your personal press agent, even your shrink. Some days she is the reason you wish you were an only child..."

I got one. Younger one. Ponnu, thats what we calls her. Even though she owns a prettier name, Punnya, she is known to every one as Ponnu. And the above said lines completely describes her and us.

Ponnu,

I hate you and I love you at the same moment. We fight with each other and we stand as one in the next second. I hate you when you says, you misses a brother and I hate you more when you are more attached to some one other than me. I simply says no to you, but in the next moment I think about how I can do it for you.

I don't know how my life will be and how I will be without you. You are my ray of hope always. You always have answers for me and I love it. Being an elder sister, I may be not the best but count on the younger ones YOU ARE AWESOME. I don't want to say more. Stay always like this. Crazy, Cool, Carefree, Blessed and Ambitious.

Image Courtesy: The Happy Page

Love you a lot my idiot
(Forget to tell, I love the way you call me 'Chech'!)

30 DAYS 30 LETTERS CHALLENGE 

IT’S ALL ABOUT LETTERS! 30 DAYS 30 LETTERS CHALLENGE

Letters, Letters, Hand Written Letters! First love for that blue paper arriving home every week addressing my mom’s name started from my childhood. On those days I really wished I too will have someone in the coming future who will regularly send me letters, just to check on with my life. Ha… It never happened with me with these electronic gadgets. 30 Days, 30 Letters and my love to write letters, am in for the challenge.

DAY 3: LETTER TO YOUR PARENTS

She is my Angel. The one for which I can do anything. And I calls her Amma. He is my Best Friend. The one to whom I can speak about the whole world. And I calls him Acha. These two people never judged me and they both makes me. And am proud because they are my parents. I never thought of writing to them and I don't know what to... Still, here it is...


Amma N Acha,

I know writing to both together is not that fair... There are some secrets which Acha only knows, & Amma do the complains about and vice versa. It happens... You people know that na? It's just because for some thing Amma is the safe zone and in some other Acha. But you guys know one thing?, you people make an awesome couple and because of you too I believe in love, marriage and family.

Amma N Acha, I Know am not the best daughter in the world. I had made you cry, I made you realise how much patience you both have (:P), my craziness, my alien thoughts, how rude I was to Ponnu when she first came to our lives, how much mess we both together created for you and still how much trouble and daily tensions I create for both of you, even as a grown up girl.

That's me on my First Birthday with my Amma N Acha.

You people never complained about anything. I had seen tears in Amma's eyes when I shouted to her once and she slept that night hugging me. The daily fights between me and Acha, (yes dad, your opinion counts but I don't want to admit it) where we fought still one of us decides to stay silent. If you people ask me to say for what all things I behaved rudely with you, trust me I can count from the first one to the last and I won't miss a single incident. Sometimes by hurting you, I was hurting myself (how cruel I'm as a daughter, but you people loved me for that too). You guys really spoiled me with your love. ;-)

Before concluding this, I should say you are the coolest parents in the world. When I expects you to shout at me for what I have said and did, you always stood with me and showed the right path in your own way. I have never seen you both worrying for yourself. All the lines in your forehead were either made by me or Ponnu. You people never said a 'No' to me and Ponnu, but always made sure that those 'Yes' were for the right things.


We have never did anything for you. But it was beautiful to see you smile when you came to know that I got a job. The proud in your eyes, when your daughters clears each steps of their life's gracefully and the way you smile in those moments, that's a treasure for both of us.

Love you both with all my life
You guys are the best

30 DAYS 30 LETTERS CHALLENGE

IT’S ALL ABOUT LETTERS! 30 DAYS 30 LETTERS CHALLENGE

Letters, Letters, Hand Written Letters! First love for that blue paper arriving home every week addressing my mom’s name started from my childhood. On those days I really wished I too will have someone in the coming future who will regularly send me letters, just to check on with my life. Ha… It never happened with me with these electronic gadgets. 30 Days, 30 Letters and my love to write letters, am in for the challenge.

DAY 2: LETTER TO YOUR CRUSH

Am smiling! A wide smile. This is the first time am writing a letter to my crush. So, who is the lucky guy who made me dream something? Or just some goosebumps? (:D :P, Do I sound crazy?) OK... If the guy have a good voice (I really mean good Voice), someone who can write down his thoughts beautifully or someone who can keep the conversation going without any flaws... Ha... He can and he will catch my attention! This one goes for Mr. Writer, the recent crush of mine.

Hey,

I'm still confused about how to address you. I thought of so many names to call you, thinking our relation ship in my mind. I thought calling you by your name, then about your pen name, but in all those my respect for you hits first other than my love for your words! And in the end I finalised on 'Pen Pal', neither official nor unofficial.

I cant control my smiles when I think about you, our relation and the way you thinks and treat me. sometimes I feel like a small kid who is listening to an elder person and understanding about life. You don't know how many times I stalked on you. Your blogs, website, behance, social media accounts. You can count on me, for anything about you, am that much a loyal stalker. You will wonder if you check my web history. There is no one single day without checking you on internet and when you were seen last online.

By the way do you know all my friends know you by the time we first exchanged a 'hai'. Your stories, your characters I killed them literally with your imagination. But I never let anyone fall for you. I never disclosed your most beautiful romantic poems or lines to them. They are just mine and they will always remains as mine. Sometimes the thought that you are writing for your lady love kills me and I envy her on those moments at the most (Fingers crossed! If you have someone in your life, please don't tell it to me... I have created a beautiful world for us, with your imagination and words along with my craziness for you *Sigh*).

I know, if you fall in love with me, I won't die. I will always live in your words. of course, there is a selfishness in it, Mr. Writer. A selfishness just to make your words as mine and to live in your words forever.

Hope you will read it Mr. Crush and will agree to my dreams... :P

Hopefully
Ready to be your's...


30 DAYS 30 LETTERS CHALLENGE

IT’S ALL ABOUT LETTERS! 30 DAYS 30 LETTERS CHALLENGE

Letters, Letters, Hand Written Letters! First love for that blue paper arriving home every week addressing my mom’s name started from my childhood. On those days I really wished I too will have someone in the coming future who will regularly send me letters, just to check on with my life. Ha… It never happened with me with these electronic gadgets. 30 Days, 30 Letters and my love to write letters, am in for the challenge.

DAY 1: LETTER TO YOUR BEST FRIEND

Anyone who knows me doesn’t need any introduction about my crazy girl, my bestieee. So to the ones, who doesn’t know ‘US’, we are Annu n Pavi. The unique mix of opposite poles (to the outer world) and to us, we are perfect! We are just like that and writing to her is just getting to my nerves. And here it goes…

Annu,

What ya? Am sitting here for more than ten minutes without typing anything after typing your name! Am I running out of words or don’t I have anything to tell to you? :-P

So you are coming down on Friday and before you decide on anything, let me tell you I have big plans for this weekend (Hope you guessed it with our last conversation). Yeah! It was always like that with us. Making big plans and cancelling it in the last moment and unplanned ones which will always work out.

Wait… Just this thought come to me now! How it will be if I wrote something to you, like we used to write in examinations? In three paragraph’s, with the introductory note, content part and the concluding stanza, God! I can’t think about it.  Anyways, am not going to do that now. Someday I will try it for sure.

Do you remember when we first met? Hold the hands for first time? Shared something?

I don’t remember when I met this girl for the first time. From the memories of our mothers, we are together from the first day at school. Running down the memory lane, I found you coming to my home one evening with your mother to enquire, why am not coming to classes! May be that was that magical moment, where US started. Even after moving to two different schools, things were working between US and the great come back in school final years. From those little girls to the vibrant ladies, we have witnessed everything in each other’s life. No secrets untold, no happiness unshared, all the tears we wept, craziness, pranks and the decisions we took for each other. Some days we won’t talk with each other or not even a text, but when something happens you are the first one to call and to reach.

What else I need to say. I love you girl and I trust you more than myself when you decide for me. When I have that strong shoulders to lay and safe hands to hold mine, I really don’t mind going crazy. I just love the way we yell at each other when the other is wrong and when silence speaks between us.  I love the way you coddle me like a younger sister (it happens rarely, I guess am the protective one among us) and I love the way when strangers asks us “Are you sisters?” More than anything I love the way when the two families treat us as their daughters.

Love you girl and stay always as my Annu…. Be crazy and just make me mad!

With lots of love and hugs

Pavi

30 DAYS 30 LETTERS CHALLENGE

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